I know what this life has for me even though I am only eighteen. The time for a new era began at the ending of my Senior year, when I finally got a job. Ever since then, an unexpected hunger for independence grew; wanting to live on my own. To leave this big rock of an island to travel the world. Toward the mainland where I can meet lots of new people, experience many new places, maybe even decide to move eventually. Many young adults my age don’t think about moving out of their parents house or being independent. Why? Because we’re Gen Z. Where anything you want can be bought with a swipe of mommy or daddy’s credit card. Personally I want to go to an environment where holding barbecues outside my house brings highlight to my neighborhood. Not just with me but with a passionate partner besides me. Knowing that wherever we go we’ll be there to support one another. I may be moving too fast but I’ve been thinking about living on my own while starting a life for myself. Even though I am only eighteen my mind is set in stone.
The islands possess only so much to a local such as myself. To mainlanders, Hawaii could be paradise, a getaway, or maybe their future retirement home. People may say, “You’re so lucky to live in Hawaii, why would you want to leave?”. Although for me, Hawaii feels like a prison. I could never live with myself if I ended up working a 9-5 job in my hometown seeing the same people everyday. Even though the Big Island turns out to be my home I’ve come to realize this Island won’t be my forever. Not knowing where I will end up, when everything will all come together, or what place I will call my forever. However, my intuition senses something is coming soon. Until then all I can do is pray, continuing to ask God to guide me on my journey. There is more for me in this world, that’s just waiting for me to get there.